Gift of Indecision

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It’s a blessing, this indecision

No more hesitating to count what’s mine

although a tear may blur my vision

This choice, a final baseline

No more hesitating to count what’s mine

I’ll erase those mistakes and call it revision

This choice, my final baseline

for a future free of derision

I’ll erase those mistakes and call it revision

Surely a gift from above, some kind of sign

A future free of derision,

a blessing borne of indecision





photo: Flickr

prompt: Sammi Cox – Weekend Writing Prompt #12

Betrayal

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Below the city’s cobblestones,

it shifted, restless and hungry

Its assault knew no bounds

I never saw it coming

Intent on satisfying a lust for chaos,

it lingered in the night

calling my name

And I, already astray on tumultuous seas,

sought refuge on its false oasis,

believing its promise of safety

Its lighthouse, sweeping lights spewing gentle rage,

deceived this lonely sailor

desperately grasping at lifelines

I bathed in its devious beams

Bruised and battered, I climbed its rocky shore

My boat, nothing but splinters, lay strewn against its bluffs

My tender feet masticated by skeletons of those who came before

Lured by its siren call, I persisted,

dragging myself to a gleaming gate

swung open in grand gestures of welcome

City streets, cold and empty, warned of danger

Still, I fell to my knees

thankful to be on solid ground

I never felt its knife plunge into my back



photo: mine

prompts: MLMM – First Line Fridays, #SW Prompt 04, #Written River, WordPress Daily Post

Bridging Time

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Funny how years can melt away, slipping down those walls we built. A shared smile slipped in the locks of time and toggled open each yesterday. We fell into a familiar routine, one that lived in a place before a hinged door hesitated and shut with a whispered click.

That day of goodbyes, the one roaming the corners of my mind, tugged on tethers we spent years cultivating.
I saw them wrapped around each signpost I passed, and wondered..

Can burned bridges be reconstructed?


Silhouettes contrast
light and dark, past and present
with simple beauty



So it was there in a small café we became engineers, designing this new trestle.
Two women gossiping like the old women we would become.
Minutes became hours as the past came alive in a room full of strangers,
each memory a steel crossbeam spanning distances time held dear.
Wide-open acceptance built a deck, well-worn cracks bolstered by connections.
And those once tenuous tethers wound together in unpliable strands connecting light and dark, past and present.


This bridge, resilient
light and dark silhouetted
against still shadows




photo: Pexels

prompts: WordPress Daily Post, Mindlovesmisery’s Menagerie – Saturday’s Mix

Healing Hands

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In the end, hands told the story

a common denominator among the dying

 

Some clenched in anger or pain or both

grasping sweat-soaked sheets on a rented hospital bed

that had taken over the room where family meals used to be shared

white gladiolas, long neglected, wilt in an empty vase

 

Some folded to accompany fervent prayers

offered by a minister speaking in thunderclaps and cloudbursts

as the faithful gathered with perfect posture to welcome the hereafter

a child, ignored, sleeps in a corner

 

Some reached out as if to delay the inevitable

begging for reprieve, an end to this suffering

immured in a place that reeked of antiseptic and rot

vials of medicine, insulin perhaps, untouched as morphine pumps whirl

 

Some were limp as if in acquiescence

relaxed as stories of days gone by were shared without regret

a last celebration of sorts, glasses of wine filled and refilled

containers of food from a favorite restaurant growing cold on the counter

 

Some were given to shake and tremble

the only obvious movement of a body in a seemingly endless slumber

an errant interruption of feigned peace on display by the light radiating from a single bulb

his slovenly dressed son rubs his scraggly beard and weeps

 

And she, as witness to final moments, embraced each one,

providing comfort and compassion and a hand to hold

 

photo: Pixabay

prompt: Mindlovesmisery’s Menagerie Wordle #161

 

Family Ties

cousins

Elusive, like shadows in the water

Static electricity that hums just before it sparks

A vanishing point that disappears just beyond awareness


There’s an invisibility to it, this connection


A chain-reaction that builds as one after another after another

is born to women who are sisters, to women who are daughters

in a family creating its own legacy


Bonds illuminated by the blood they share

strengthened when challenged

enhanced when needed

nourished unapologetically


Deepened by years that crawl through experiences

collectively perceived as each is individually held


a gift, this alliance bequeathed by birth

a treasure. each defining my

past, present, and future





photo: mine

prompt: Mindlovesmisery’s Menagerie writing prompt #213

Scarlet Letters

scarlet letter

 

She was somewhat of a local legend

what with the way she always dressed in black

An obsidian obelisk stuck in the candy-colored swirl of clouds,

her youthful face obscured by the weight of her grief

Still, she was woven into the community fabric,

an example of the perilous journey betrayal invites

A warning

Trust long since left behind, scattered in the days

when she existed in another life, another place

A perpetual hiatus

Even casual observations painted her heartsick regret

with a brush heavy with accusation

Commonly held belief held her accountable

for his permanent departure, that night he did it

that morning when she found him, lifeless

when even a spectacular sunrise could not

undo what he did, what she did

Discarding the rule of law that called her blameless,

this tight-knit town handed down its own sentence,

ostracizing her in a place that had always been home

She would never again belong

 

 

photo: Google Images

 

prompts: #HeartToPoetry, WordPress Daily Prompt

 

 

 

 

 

La Gaudiere

rebellion

Maybe it was the summer heat

a perceptible shift from the mundane

maybe it was the summer heat

 

first attempts washed away the stain

a tentative push toward rebellion

a perceptible shift from the mundane

 

tired of leaning backwards, of the Machiavellian

a nudge to stiffen the spine and vent

a tentative push toward rebellion

 

partial became whole with each voice of dissent

even the timid found smiles as they set to oppose

a nudge to stiffen the spine and vent

 

A chorus of voices — oh, how it rose

collective power under that blazing sun

even the timid found smiles as they set to oppose

 

a spark to set that fire, not to be undone

collective power under that blazing sun

Maybe it was the summer heat

Maybe it was the summer heat

 

photo: Pixabay

 

prompt: Mindlovesmisery’s Menagerie wordle #160

Paradox

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I dreamt of my past last night…

the ultimate paradox

that place where my dreams lived

when all the edges were smooth and

promises opened to possibilities that

blossomed in the night

where even the tension that beckoned

each morning serves now as my muse

and the drama it owned told stories

that would fill any playhouse with audiences

who urged the ingénue to bite a poisoned apple

 

I suppose I’m stuck in still believing

you get what you deserve and maybe

this is where I belong

this stalemate I call home

so familiar in its restlessness

that claims hope each day

where thieves disguised as

faith and belief and ambition

steal a little more as I continue

to sleepwalk aimlessly

 

Or could it be, as I’m exploring this

self-indulgent note in this dream I had,

that the message is there, waiting

a way to find freedom from this lot

I’ve cultivated, I’ve carelessly encouraged,

Might be I’m holding the trident of Neptune

as I play on the rocky shore

Might be I’ve been treading water for long enough

and it’s time to sink or swim

Might be that dream last night was so commonplace

I’ve forgotten to fear it

A paradox, this future tangled in the past

where nightmares masquerade as dreams

 

photo: Pixabay

prompt: Mindlovesmisery’s Menagerie wordle #159

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Each Small Moment

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A quest for instant satisfaction drives fools to the edge,

a rush of adrenaline to fuel fleeting desires wrapped in pretty packages

It’s never enough to satisfy the need lurking just beneath

Disjointed ambition pandering to greed, to need, to concede

Settling for less when what the heart craves, what the heart knows,

seems too daunting a task

 

Take time with the things that matter

 

An intention made, whispered in a quiet moment,

is a cause worthy of time and patience and strength

It allows room to let frustration linger, turning slowly

until obstacles become stepping stones and each small victory

blazes a trail toward fulfillment

Because when it is important, each step fits

even when it leads to the same road block

Sometimes spinning in circles reveals the right direction

 

Take time with the things that matter

 

A quest for inner satisfaction drives the determined to the edge,

a foundation built to support enduring goals wrapped in careful planning

Just enough to satisfy the need lurking just beneath

Bounded ambition attending to identity, to integrity, to serenity

Demanding more even when what the heart craves, what the heart knows,

seems too daunting a task

 

Take time with the things that matter

 

photo: mine

prompt: Ripen the Page

 

Intertwined

intertwined

With parallel experiences, our lives are intertwined

though you tend to get lost in spice and smoke, preferring to walk blind

Your strong desire to please, a dangerous mission leads you astray

These roads you follow, silent footsteps on a fool’s array

Wander as you must, choices and consequences become solidly combined

 

Your blood running in mine, spirits before us whisper and remind

our background, this history we share, make us forever aligned

You may go, forgetting as you disappear into the fray,

our lives are intertwined

 

Awestruck by this sorrow I feel, to grief I am resigned

With nerves bent and frayed, I accept this sentence you’ve assigned

and when hope withers, almost left to decay

I’ll look for you on my darkest day

A candle in the window, a call to remind

our lives forever intertwined

 

photo: Flickr

 

prompt: Mindlovesmisery’s Menagerie Wordle #158

Moments

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a moment to collect these fragments of time

by chance, a moment to turn it inside out

if only for a moment

 

scaffolds of despair layered under a rain-kissed sky

imaginary temples to honor seclusion beneath a nectarine sun

as the wolf, beaten, howls at the door

for a moment

 

a woman, more than blood and bone, seeks truth

aspirations drawn out on willowy planks

wobble in this moment

 

keenly aware as it all tumbles down

she delights in destruction

as the wolf becomes her faithful companion

if only for a moment

 

a moment to skim these fragments of time

by chance, a moment to turn it inside out

moment by moment by moment

 

photo: drawing by T. Lao-ang, my student

 

prompts: Mindlovesmisery’s Menagerie Wordle #157, #MadVerse, WordPress Daily Post, #TastyPoem

 

 

Silent Detonation

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Scenes played out, familiar but not quite intimate.

A slight detachment between performers and audience, yet a story shared by many.

Mutual connection separated by varying degrees of separation.

If each experience is unique, is the collective result skewed?

A responsibility to warn of dire consequences

hangs in the air, drowning out

voices repeating

old lines

 

a silent witness

unmasked as worlds come undone

Contrition does not absolve

 

one chance

to stop duplicating

past choices too many made

A responsibility to warn of dire consequences

Is this collective experience skewed when nothing is really unique?

Varying degrees of separation are still the same color bathed in different hues

A story shared by far too many persists without an alliance between each one of us

The familiar, intimate on any stage

 

photo: publicdomainpictures.net

 

prompts: Mindlovesmisery’s Menagerie, #MSpoetry, WordPress Daily Post

Nostalgia

nostalgia

the power of memories

a trip to what had been

I let go

I surrendered

 

the power of a song

a reminder of what had been

I heard echoes of laughter

I danced with ghosts

 

burdens of today weigh heavy

a prison made from scars

I needed to slip away

I cast a lifeline to yesterday

 

If for a moment, relief

 

nostalgia infused in this blue mood

a few hours lost in old songs

I let go

I surrendered

 

 

photo: mine

 

prompt: WordPress Daily Post

 

 

 

 

 

After the Rain

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After the rain it all looked different, a reprieve

Those city streets covered in grease and grime

sparkling just enough to make us believe

 

Cracked and broken sidewalks glistened on a midsummer’s eve

almost beautiful, washed clean of blood and crime

After the rain it all looked different, a reprieve

 

That driving storm hid mothers who grieve

Strobes of police lights fading in elapsed time

sparkling just enough to make us believe

 

Illuminated by lightning, we were naïve

believing everything could change on a dime

After the rain it all looked different, a reprieve

 

When the sun rose to reveal all we did not achieve

the bells on that church tower began to chime

sparkling just enough to make us believe

 

And so we gathered, hoping to retrieve

the courage to face these mountains, shortcomings yet to climb

After the rain it all looked different, a reprieve

sparkling just enough to make us believe

 

photo: Pixabay

 

prompts: Random Noodling, WordPress Daily Post

Sweet Grace

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It was personal, that decision I made

to honor the day my angel grew wings

It was personal, your choice to throw shade

Things you don’t know could be just about anything

 

What you see isn’t always what you get

Easy to judge when a world is so small

 

A ray of hope, a light in my darkened room

that tiny heartbeat fluttering, a drumbeat in a fragile womb

And the day I lost her gave way to gloom, the gloom

My sweet Grace slipped away

 

It was personal, that decision I made

An artist’s ink on my quivering skin

It was personal, those judgements you made

Things you implied with a jerk of your chin

 

A ray of hope, a light in my darkened room

that tiny heartbeat fluttering, a drumbeat in a fragile womb

And the day I lost her gave way to gloom, the gloom

My sweet Grace slipped away

 

It was personal, that decision I made

to honor the day my angel grew wings

It was personal, your choice to throw shade

Things you don’t know could be just about anything

 

Thankful I found grace

Sustains me when I walk in your superficial place

She’s a memory I won’t allow you to deface

 

A ray of hope, a light in my darkened room

that tiny heartbeat fluttering, a drumbeat in a fragile womb

And the day I lost her gave way to gloom, the gloom

My sweet Grace slipped away

 

Thankful I found grace

Sustains me when I walk in your superficial place

Gratitude lives in Grace

 

photo: mine

prompts: WordPress Daily Post, Lyric Ideas

Change of Heart

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I thought I knew who I was

until I became

the person I am not


Following that twisted path because

I had the audacity to believe a false claim

I thought I knew who I was


It wasn’t until I became adrift, stopping to untie knots,

that I allowed this true reflection to stretch

until I became

 

the person I am meant to be,

laid bare, liberated from the trappings of

the person I am not




photo: Flickr

prompts: Nia W., #TastyPoem, WordPress Daily Post

*One of today’s prompts comes from my student. The first stanza comes from her poem.

Before Flight

before flight

I suppose it’s well enough for now

this departure from reality

It’s well enough for now

Ensconced in a world of strained repartee

true believers cast a spell, an ordination

in this departure from reality

Packaged and sold as one’s vocation

Weak and weary accept the transition

as true believers cast that spell, an ordination

Fact and fiction dance in this place, a juxtaposition

and as the light is swallowed, a plan to escape is awakening

even as the weak and weary accept this transition

Understanding a call to change is happening

Resistance is the new resolution

and as the light is swallowed, a plan to escape is awakening

Railing against misguided institutions

I suppose it’s well enough for now

Resistance is the new resolution

I suppose it’s well enough for now


photo: mine

prompts: #MadVerse, Lyric Ideas, WordPress Daily Post

Courage

alice

Sometimes illusion eviscerates expectation

like reverse reflections mirroring shattering glass

Defiant, the faithful pursue unattainable goals

embracing intent to entice new roles

Wading into dark and deep crevices

that lurk outside defined boundaries

some are waylaid on hidden shoals

sinking deeper into predetermined holes

But for some who dare to fly with clipped wings

those jagged shards cast shimmering points of light

A beacon when hope was hung on the hangman’s poles

An escape route from what providence dictates and doles

Sometimes expectation inspires rousing illusions

like prophetic reflections mirroring that magic looking glass

Faithful, the defiant defy unattainable goals

embracing intent to embrace new roles



photo: Pinterest

prompts: #TastyPoem, #MSpoetry, #TLPoetry

Conversations

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Creeping vines of self-righteousness seek to find hold

Whitewashed versions of truth, nothing but a blindfold

Quarrels of man hurt before reaching the heart of the matter

Pain, a necessary evil if dialogue is meant to be more than mindless chatter

Visible scars cast a sheen on egos that scramble for fool’s gold

If by chance, one is willing to pay the price to be paroled

Understanding voids the masquerade of souls once willing to be sold

Rotten and narrow, those old beliefs fall away with unimportant smatter

Still, creeping vines of self-righteousness seek to find hold

Always a work in progress, communication must be bold

A willingness to be vulnerable to release the stranglehold

Suffering to see it through wrings all regret, bruised and tattered

Allows a connection that opposing views can not scatter

The process, long and arduous, brings blessings untold

Cut those creeping vines that seek to find hold



photo: Pinterest

prompts: Mindlovemisery’s Menagerie Wordle 153, Two Sylvia’s Press, #MSPoetry

Abandoned Dreams

abandoned dreams

Found a discarded photograph by the side of the road

Yellowed by time, its shadows whispered a story

Frayed edges framed tattered dreams in black and white

A packed suitcase on a perfectly made bed beneath that cracked window

Yellowed by time, its shadows whispered a story

A simple wedding band there on the pillow

next to a one-way bus ticket out of town

Frayed edges framed tattered dreams in black and white

this picture captured the image of a man just outside

sitting on a porch with his head in his heads

A packed suitcase on a perfectly made bed beneath that cracked window

Her plans were made, this woman who no longer needed

mementos of another life



photo: Pixabay

prompt: Amber Ravatsaas/Pinterest

Going Home

going home

Sometimes I slip back to that place

where troubles can’t intrude

My mother’s garden, filled with flowers and lace

In need of respite from life’s fast pace

I wander and let waves wash over this unsettled mood

Sometimes I slip back to that place

In search of comfort, it’s childhood footsteps I trace

to release these problems I’ve accrued

My mother’s garden, filled with flowers and lace

And when I’m seeking mercy and divine grace

from this darkness, I look up and get lost in gratitude

Sometimes I slip back to that place

and when I find relief from a shifting space

I let go of my affliction, this need to brood

in my mother’s garden, filled with flowers and lace

With memories of home, I seek to replace

everything in life that’s become skewed

Sometimes I slip  back to that place

My mother’s garden, filled with flowers and lace


photo: mine

prompts: #TastyPoem, #MadVerse

Strength in Innocence

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When Innocence takes delicate matters by the hand

intent on silencing screams between warring factions

Time is forced to face Introspection on her witness stand

Social contracts shredded by meaningless transactions

Intent on silencing screams between warring factions

she somehow understands all views cast in black and white…

those social contracts shredded by meaningless transactions

serve no purpose other than to destroy and incite

This voice of tomorrow understands all views cast in black and white

can create beauty when swirled together in endless shades of gray

Defying those who serve no purpose other than to destroy and incite

Innocence takes delicate matters by the hand




Photo Art by Andi Abdul Halil


prompts: Mindlovesmisery’s Menagerie Photo Prompt 162, #3wordsaday, WordPress Daily Prompt

Carve A Path – #Writephoto

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Each is a unique journey

that path we carve through shifting sands

an ache that pulls toward a place of peace

Rapids tumbling over sharpened rocks follow a trail of worry

until letting go gives power to understand

each is a unique journey

Like the river meeting the sea piece by piece

navigation may require some twists and turns

that path we carve through shifting sands

The potential for brilliance is there

when we finally exhale and satisfy

that ache that pulls toward a place of peace



photo: Sue Vincent – #writephoto

prompts: Thursday photo prompt Shore – #writephoto, The Prompt (see below), #TLPoetry, #TastyPoem

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Elements

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Like the earth beneath my feet, I am grounded

although at times my passion spews from deep within

incinerating everything it touches, flowing fluid streams of lava

Pausing to let things cool, I let today run into tomorrow

knowing all I laid waste to at this moment will become

fertile ground down the line

Designing a future not yet defined, abandoning a past no longer in control

Like a fire whipped into a frenzy by persistent winds, I am a storm

whirling, twisting over fields I carefully once cultivated

taking care to destroy rows of crops that provided false nourishment

deliberately culling undergrowth which threatened to choke rebirth

I was the architect of change, building castles that reached for the sky

laying each stone with bloodied hands, taking comfort in the pain

which reminded me I was still alive, finding answers to each riddle

that burned on my parched lips

Designing a future not yet defined, abandoning a past no longer in control

And when the rushing tides rolled back slowly, silently

change showed the cracks in sharp relief, serving as a lesson

that flaws are infinitely more beautiful than what is

is considered by some to be perfection

I became water, harnessing my power to soothe

Acknowledging my will to heal with each ripple of renewal

Designing a future not yet defined, abandoning a past no longer in control



photo: mine

prompts: The Rising Phoenix Review, prompt 9, #Written River, #Writer’s Write, NaPoWriMo.net Day 11

Man of Few Words

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At first glance, there was something unsettling

about this man with steel grey eyes

that pierced even the darkest shadows

A man of few words, he set to work

carefully displaying bouquets of flowers

on his cart by the riverside

the brilliant colors, a sharp contrast

to his somber countenance

His gnarled fingers, covered in fingerless gloves

that had long since lost their form

gently urged each blossom to share its authentic voice

although his was muted, punctuated with monosyllabic

grunts accompanied by a slight jerk of his whiskered chin

as he wove metallic ribbons and pastel papers around his wares

And when he was done he pulled out the rusty sign,

almostly lovingly caressing its faded message

as he bolted it to the willow tree that sprawled overhead

No human is illegal

the donation box for a local charity, worn and well used

was prominently placed among the daisies and already half full

as I sidled up to his ramshackle cart

Drawn to the contrast of the beauty of the blooms and his wrinkled face

that almost disappeared into the weeping branches behind him,

I offered a smile, expecting nothing in return

as those haunting eyes met mine

Still, it was a story I had to know

and so I asked

my words, my soul, my heart pleaded

Tell me

For a moment, nothing

only the sounds of the city behind us

children’s laughter mocking the connection

I tried to make as I silently begged my shaking legs

to hold up under the gaze of his silent glare

Tell me

I pointed to the box

Tell me

After a moment, he spoke, his words tracing his own journey

across a world I’ve never known, never knew

Simply relaying hardships that he’d experienced

Trials and tribulations suffered in search of something better

Of losses that forced him to leave everything he knew

to find something better

Of hard work and set backs as he created a new life for the family he

carried with him

Of his father’s sprawling nursery, left behind in a place

he used to call home

No human is illegal

He spoke and I listened

captivated under a sky bathed in reds and purples

of the setting sun as those foreign fields sprang to life

the chill of the approaching evening settled in as he finished

and I wiped the tears on my cheek I hadn’t realized fell

until those gnarled fingers gathered the prettiest bouquet

and offered them to me with a smile

That man of few words gifting me with more than a souvenir

of a connection made between strangers

A gentle reminder to remain aware of all that we share

as people living separate lives together



photo: mine

prompts: Rising Phoenix Review, prompt 13, WD April PAD, prompt 14, #Tasty Poem,

Writing Knights, prompt 7, #SableSwanV